Scared Mommy

Wow…it’s hard to admit it but I am scared to death. I took Andy to the doctor this evening for a med reevaluation. The doctor agreed that it would be prudent to make some changes. Changes can be scary no matter what but when the doctor warns you that there could be serious consequences since he has been on the meds so long you almost think twice.  I literally sat there doubting whether or not to change things even though lowering the amount of medicine that he takes has been tops on my to-do list for years, literally. Being warned that your child may end up having some sort of serious aggressive behavior or meltdown that could lead to hospitalization is scary! But this is the chance, and I have no idea when another one may come along.

So, we’re heading down a new path tomorrow, the changes in med doses are immediate. I’m already stressed out just thinking about it. My son hates taking pills so I know  he should be happy just by taking fewer, but I pray the withdrawal symptoms are mild or non-existent.  One of my son’s common complaints is that he is always tired, and this new doctor was able to identify the meds that may be causing him to feel that way.  Side effects of meds these days are often worse than the condition they are treating! So between less pills and perhaps not being so tired, maybe things will be better. It’s so hard to know sometimes if you are making the right decision or not but in this case I think the only bad decision would not be trying to get  him off  (at least some) of the medication. Wish us luck!