Affirmation

I’ve been an absolute mess this week. No matter what I was doing or supposed to be concentrating on all I thought about were the medication changes that my son was going through. Well, my mind is pretty much at ease now. We have had an amazing 6 days on the new dose. There have been no bad side effects, I can barely believe, it was one of those situations where I prepared for the worst but got the best.  I am thrilled. My brother has spent a significant amount of time with my son since the med change and he can't believe how quickly there has been such positive change! My son actually had a somewhat-normal sense of humor this week. I literally thought something was wrong with how hard he was laughing at reruns of Full House.  

 I often wonder who my son is under the mask of all these medications and I think we are on our way to finding out.  Even though watching my son’s behavior has been reassurance enough to know I did the right thing, it got better than that. He, the boy who HATES to write (polar opposite of his mother), wrote me a letter at school one day. He told that he is so very happy to be off some of his pills and that he is going to try his best to behave and prove to me that he doesn’t need them. It brought tears to my eyes and I stuck it on the refrigerator door as a little reminder that I made the right decision, taking a risk was the right thing.